I won't say who, incase this person ever reads my blog. But someone close to me for a long time has put me down for my intelligence. I've been told I'm too wordy, or trying to intellectualize situations as a negative means of coping. I never understood why my whole life from my years in the public school system to friends and family that im trying to hard to be 'smart' and that means im being white. It hurts when our own black people tell us that being intelligent or speaking logically without being overcome by emotion is being 'white' and that speaking ebonics and broken english makes me fit in the peg with my people. I have years of pain in my heart at being rejected by people and groups because I dont know who I am because of the ridicule I've faced. I have 3 personalities- my stage persona, my family persona, and who I truly am with someone I'm comfortable with. I'm 27 and I have not been comfortable in my own skin since the day I turned 18.